Thursday Training

Thursday Training

P.s. These drawings are almost just the size of a coin.

October 30, 2014

Today I went to a school newspaper member training. It wasn't new to me since I've been to those before and it's not that exciting. Mostly of what they teach there are what we tackle during journalism class plus I went to school on a holiday.

I'm not the kind of person who shows my artworks a lot, not even those I personally think are great. I seldom draw for others or to present it to them because I have a fear of criticism, good or bad. It's strange, I know. I feel like when I do, they'll judge, pointing out every small detail in that work. But something was different on this day.

Waiting for the lecturer was very tiring. Two hours of waiting in a hall full with people wasn't a nice experience. I sat down alone because there was only person I knew in that area - my former teacher and a fellow schoolmate of mine. Talking to my old educator is awkward, and my friend was in feature writing so we were separated. To deal with boredom, I began draw with my sign pens. A quick doodle would help me ease my stress, not knowing people watching me as I did. It was funny. They said the loveliest compliments then even took a picture of my sketch. Honestly, I was just amazed because I never got this attention before except when I won a division contest.

The orientation commenced and at the end, we were tasked to finish an editorial cartoon. Children younger than my age started to watch me as I draw. They told me that I was a real artist for I was so fast at it. I even heard someone said that I could be a fashion designer or a real artist. I got so inspired but I felt like I still failed at my job on drawing a cartoon.

But hey, I am just so happy they liked it. That means I don't just love it, but I am good at it. I usually see most of my artworks as something not great, like the one I drew there so I don't know why they liked it.

Love youuuu. Thanks for reading!!!

Hey Lily

Hey Lily

Okay first, I'm gonna write this blog because I want to ask, Have you ever found true friends but not happy with them? Because I did.

 I've always been happy of where I've been studying but a year ago, I transferred to a science school because my mom's work changed its location. I went there battling the first months without a friend. One of my classmates even said that I should just go back to my previous school, some telling me I was trying to be cool and other stuffs like that. I thought that I wasn't as smart enough for them. I cried for it for months.

So basically, I told that to my friend Lily, and you know what she told me when I said I wasn't good enough?

The time passed and it finally went right for me. I learned to at least let go and accept my friends here before won't be the same I have today.  I realized they were nice people. It finally hit me - they weren't the ones hurting me, but I was the one who isolated myself from them. I also learned that some causes of depressions are because of the people themselves, how they think and how they behave.

So today, I'm now in 8th grade.  I'm just really glad I knew these people here at my new(Well, used to be new) school. but I've been kind of feeling lonely though. I am a very eccentric type of person, but can be really deep. My friends here are quite the realistic and they don't like to gossip about celebrities or famous people, what are the trends and what's hot. I can't talk with them about Candice Swanepoel, One Direction, or new songs of Taylor Swift. I don't talk to them about my dreams because they might say that's impossible. I can't tell them my fears because I'm scared they'll laugh. They're not those people I can be who I am with. They're nice and great, they're true. But there's something missing.

That's what I want to clear out, having the greatest friends on earth but not being happy. It's so hard. It's too difficult to understand if you haven't had one before. I just want to thank those people who understands.

I love you so much.

:)

P.S.
So I want to tell my Lily something

So I'm really just so happy that you're around Lily, bet you didn't know that. I love you to the moon and back. Sometimes, when I see you on Facebook, I want to talk with you to be honest but I might be annoying, so I refrain myself. You're the only one I can talk to you about random things. Remember my journals? I decided to keep them locked away because it just makes me sad that so much has changed. Remember those who's hot and who's not? The turn offs and turn ons? Those lipstick stains on 5 & 6? Small cafes during Fridays?(You know, MJell's) I miss those times.

All I want to say is that I wish nothing has changed. I wrote you on my exam is values education , one of the people who will never let me down because I think you can do that. I just hope that's true. I know this is dramatic but hey, let's be serious.

Look, it's already 9, and I still have a lot things to do. This is supposed to be longer but ran out of time. I want us to meet up in that little cafe and order cheese cakes like we used to.

-Kate

Books and Journals

Books and Journals

October 28, 2014

No sweat, no heat and not frigid. It's these kind of days where it's perfect to sit down and read a book. Relaxation seems to be present in months of October and November. It has the perfect atmosphere of a calm and an empty mind. No stress or worries.

Books are really important to me. I remember I'd go to second hand bookstores and look not for something to read, but to discover who owned those books. I've seen letter, notes, and reviews at the first or last pages. There are also tag prices stuck on the front cover with different currencies. We also bought a book that had a withered flower slid in one the pages. These books has been through a lot and I find it amazing how it survived for years. These are not just papers held together by a spine, but a reminisce.

I once entered my brother's room, and I saw a stack of old books lying under the bedside table. Sure enough, curiosity got the better of me and opened one by one trying to look for an interesting one. So far at that day,  most of it was my dad's text books back when he was still studying and a bunch of scribbled papers.

There was this this worn out peculiar book I found. I read the title which said "The Bookshelf For Boys And Girls - Volume IX, Great events and Famous people." I was intrigued by it and started to read it. It contained stories and biographies of really amazing people who contributed a lot for the society like Helen Keller, St. Joan of Arc and Galileo Galilee.

I asked my brother where'd he get it. He told me it was from my uncle's old house. I haven't been there for a long time, I think the last was December of 2012 and it was only less than how many hours I stayed there. Furthermore, he said it belongs to my aunt. (P.S. I think he didn't ask for permission to get it.) She is currently working in the Middle East, and she was annulled with my uncle so I don't really have time to ask her where'd she got the book or who bought it.

I still wonder who owns that book. I am happy though it went into my hands.

Writing is a very important thing to me. Like what I said, I'm not good at it. Though I do believe that it can heal in many different ways. I write a lot of random thoughts until I run out of them my mind just becomes blank. When all its creativity runs out into one work. Isn't that that's how we are designed to be?

P.S. I wrote this yesterday and posted it here. It was on a separate blog yesterday. :)

November Rains

November Rains

November 29, 2014

These are just some old pictures back then. The rain or the smell of it(Petrichor) gives me a nostalgic feeling. I know it's weird but colder seasons makes me feel safe and sound, like now.

Any who, I've been experiencing over fatigue over the passed few days with endless dancing and playing volleyball. My whole body hurts especially my legs and wrists. I got bruises all over them. I'm looking at the bright side though, that these will help me on becoming thinner. I'm pretty sure I'm not over weight but a lot of people have been telling me I've been putting on some meat and it makes me feel conscious.  I don't plan to be anorexic and I don't have any eating disorders. I just really want to lose body fat.

Good new s- Halloween is coming up and I can't wait!!! I sill have to go to school tomorrow though for our school newspaper. (I'm not a writer but a cartoonist)

Thanks for reading!!!
:)

First Photos here

First Photos Here

So these will be the first pictures that I will ever post here, I hope you enjoy.
P.S. I'm sorry if I'm not good. I lack experience and I only count this as a hobby. I'm only 14. Feel free to comment.