Hey Lily

Hey Lily

Okay first, I'm gonna write this blog because I want to ask, Have you ever found true friends but not happy with them? Because I did.

 I've always been happy of where I've been studying but a year ago, I transferred to a science school because my mom's work changed its location. I went there battling the first months without a friend. One of my classmates even said that I should just go back to my previous school, some telling me I was trying to be cool and other stuffs like that. I thought that I wasn't as smart enough for them. I cried for it for months.

So basically, I told that to my friend Lily, and you know what she told me when I said I wasn't good enough?

The time passed and it finally went right for me. I learned to at least let go and accept my friends here before won't be the same I have today.  I realized they were nice people. It finally hit me - they weren't the ones hurting me, but I was the one who isolated myself from them. I also learned that some causes of depressions are because of the people themselves, how they think and how they behave.

So today, I'm now in 8th grade.  I'm just really glad I knew these people here at my new(Well, used to be new) school. but I've been kind of feeling lonely though. I am a very eccentric type of person, but can be really deep. My friends here are quite the realistic and they don't like to gossip about celebrities or famous people, what are the trends and what's hot. I can't talk with them about Candice Swanepoel, One Direction, or new songs of Taylor Swift. I don't talk to them about my dreams because they might say that's impossible. I can't tell them my fears because I'm scared they'll laugh. They're not those people I can be who I am with. They're nice and great, they're true. But there's something missing.

That's what I want to clear out, having the greatest friends on earth but not being happy. It's so hard. It's too difficult to understand if you haven't had one before. I just want to thank those people who understands.

I love you so much.

:)

P.S.
So I want to tell my Lily something

So I'm really just so happy that you're around Lily, bet you didn't know that. I love you to the moon and back. Sometimes, when I see you on Facebook, I want to talk with you to be honest but I might be annoying, so I refrain myself. You're the only one I can talk to you about random things. Remember my journals? I decided to keep them locked away because it just makes me sad that so much has changed. Remember those who's hot and who's not? The turn offs and turn ons? Those lipstick stains on 5 & 6? Small cafes during Fridays?(You know, MJell's) I miss those times.

All I want to say is that I wish nothing has changed. I wrote you on my exam is values education , one of the people who will never let me down because I think you can do that. I just hope that's true. I know this is dramatic but hey, let's be serious.

Look, it's already 9, and I still have a lot things to do. This is supposed to be longer but ran out of time. I want us to meet up in that little cafe and order cheese cakes like we used to.

-Kate